I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN GOOD / FOUND IT EASY TO BE STILL, QUIET MY MIND AND MEDITATE - said no one ever. A person's mind has about 10 Mbits of information being transmitted along each optic nerve per second. A brain of an average, healthy human being has around 100 billion neurons all firing off information about 200 times per second. That's alot going on inside your head. How in the hell are you suppose to quiet all that noise?...
ready. set. meditate.
Ok. Jade is finally asleep, meditation timmee. Im gonna lay in bed to be comfortable. God I love this bed. Maybe I should just take a nap. I didn't sleep really well last night so i could take a nap. Ughh. No. No nap. meditate. Its cold in here. I need to get under the blankets. Its so nice in here when its cold and I take a nap. I could just take a nap. SHIT. No. Get up. Ok i'm just gonna sit on my yoga mat in the living room. Ok. This is better. My minds been quiet for awhile now. How long has it been. five minutes? You gotta be shittin me. Oh em geee. What are they doing up there, wrestling elephants? We need to move. I hate living in an apartment. I wonder if elephants can actually even wrestle each other. What. The. Hell. Am. I. Thinking about?! ok. Stop thinking.....I think its working.
Im not really thinking about anything. Not thinking. Just breathing. Jussst breathinngg. Just keep breathing. Just keep breathing. I sound like that blue fish from nemo. Nemo? Really? Shut up. Meditate.
Maybe if i get done meditating early I can take a nap... I will have to get up before Keith gets home though. He'll think i'm being lazy. How the hell can he even think that, I do so much. I've been cleaning and shit. What the hell Keith..ok stop thinking. Meditate. Ok i can feel myself relaxing. Breath. Ew a spider. Kill it. Ok. Now meditate. Ignore the elephants upstairs. Spiders are so gross. Oh now they're laughing. Probably at me for not being able to meditate. Ugh. Meditate.Spider. I want to open my eyes. Don't open them. I will just be distracted. Elephant. Ok not gonna open my eyes. I opened my eyes. Its ok just close them and stop thinking. Meditate. I opened them again. I need to finish that painting. Its so big and in the way. Ok. Meditate. Im hungry. Its ok I dont need food, I need meditation. What the hell, of course I need food. Its ok. Not right now. Meditate. Spider. Meditate. Breath. Meditate. Whats that talking? Oh my god Jade's awake.
I read an awesome quote this morning from Amy Jirsa, an inspiring yogi of Quiet Earth Yoga & Natural Healing...
If there must be madness, and time crunches, and chaos in your life; then let there be chaos. But find the strength and stillness to be the eye inside that storm. These things are happening around you; nothing is happening to you.
Those are simple words, that pack a powerful punch. Everything in your crazy life, all those things going on around you: kids, spouses, house work, job stress, friend (and non friend) drama, loud neighbors.. all of that is happening around you, nothing is happening to you. Embrace this thought and it can change the way you're experiencing your own. Listen to your thoughts, and send them through a filter. Ask, "Is this beneficial to me right now?" If not, let it go. And if it doesn't go, maybe it's something that needs your attention. John Roger said "You are responsible for what you hold in your mind, not what goes through it". A million things will cross your mind when you sit down to meditate. But consistently release all those thoughts that are not benefiting you in that moment, and it will get easier, over time, to "quiet your mind". I use the quotations because a mind is never really "quiet" in the normal sense. But it is more like being still. Being still and listening to what the universe has to say to you.